It's been awhile since I've posted but a lot has been going on. Christmas is just around the corner and we have been going 90 to nothing here at the Duke home. It's weird. I feel like my whole pregnancy with Emma, her death, her funeral, etc. have almost never happened. It's as if it were a dream. I know it did happen, but life continues on for the living. I have two beautiful children who require my attention every single day, but every single day I still think about and remember Emma. Whether I'm doing laundry or working on a quilt, my thoughts go back to her. I wonder what type of person she would be .. would she be outgoing like James or a free-spirit like Lauren? Would she be crawling and pulling up on everything now? Would her eyes be as big as Lauren's were when she was little? Would she giggle lot? How would Emma, James and Lauren all interact together? Would James dote on Emma or yell that she's chewing on something of his. Would Lauren be playing Balto with her on her bed? All of these thoughts run through my head. I went through the kids' clothes the other day for a new quilt I'm planning and in the process I found Emma's clothes - the ones that she was given or that we bought for her. It broke my heart to see those cute little pink clothes. One of these days I'm going to work on a quilt that contains all of my children's old clothes, and Emma's will be among them. Despite the feeling that my pregnancy and her birth/death were but a dream, I fully realize that she was (and is) part of me and this family. She may have only been here with us a very short time, but I want her clothes to be included in the quilt, my children's quilt. I think I'll call it, "Mama's Memories".
For all of you who are grieving this Christmas season, please continue to pray and lift up your thoughts and feelings to Christ. He knows. He understands and He lov
For all of you who are grieving this Christmas season, please continue to pray and lift up your thoughts and feelings to Christ. He knows. He understands and He lov