God is good. There is no doubt about that. I'm just waiting on his perfect timing for this all to take place.
I've sent out a few emails requesting well-known artists, pastors, etc. to read my manuscript and write a review for me. It's a difficult process, but I have every faith that God will help with this.
God is good. There is no doubt about that. I'm just waiting on his perfect timing for this all to take place.
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I have been researching and praying on whether to self-publish this book or find a literary agent that can represent me to publishers. I don't know which direction to take. After all my research, it appears that having a book even seen (let alone published) truly takes an act of God. That is truly what it'll take for this book to be published. I would LOVE for a publishing house to see the manuscript, absolutely fall in love with it and select it to be published. What I'm finding is that is next to impossible. Yet, I am reminded that all things are possible with God.
Aside from the book, I have been truly missing Emma this past week. My heart longs to see her and hold her again. Every night I ask God to give her a hug and a kiss for me until I can do so myself. Some days are really good and then on others it feels as if my heart has been broken anew. The sorrow that fills my heart is so strong it's almost as if it were in the early days after her death. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." - Philippians 4:13 In an act of complete and utter faith, I have sent part of my manuscript to a publisher for review. I have a few friends and our pastor reviewing it as well, but thought I would send it on to see what an actual publisher thought. God willing they will pick it up to be published. I've worked so hard on this manuscript, not just for Emma and her memory, but more importantly as a testament to God's love.
Heavenly Father, please bless those who read it at this publishing firm that they decide to publish it As of July 5th, i forwarded the first draft of my book to Brother Dan (our pastor) for his input. I still need to finish the final chapter but it looks like I'm getting nearer to completion (praise the Lord!). Writing this book was both painful and joyous at the same time. It was hard reliving all those sad moments when we lost Emma, but at the same time, I was again rewarded with the hope and joy knowing we'll be together one day.
Life is funny that way. One minute life is looking rosy and the next it's clouded by doubt or fear or worry or sadness. Regardless of where we are in any given moment, we must still praise God. The book of James says that we are to praise God in the trials, triumphs and blessings. That's been a hard lesson to learn but one that I have learned and gets easier each and every day. One year ago today Johnny and I found out that we were expecting our third child. This was my fourth pregnancy. I miscarried in October 2007 and then had two successful pregnancies.
Looking back over the past year our life has taken many ups and downs, both joyous and heartbreaking. But through it all, I still believe in and love the Lord with all my heart, soul and mind. I feel great today knowing that Emma is in heaven right now, as we speak. She's never to going to know pain or sorrow or grieve. She'll never be sick or heartbroken. She'll only know peace and love. As I've said for several months now, Jesus is rocking her for me and there's no better place that she could ever be. |