From my journal:
In two more days Emma will celebrate her six month Heaven-day. I still miss her so much. Every day I think of her, wonder what she would be like or doing now if she were still here. Would she be crawling, starting to get a tooth? Perhaps she'd be pulling up on the furniture or not yet sleeping through the night. Would she have James wrapped around her little finger? Would Lauren be teaching her how to play Balto? She may not be doing these things here. Who knows ...
Instead, maybe she's being passed from one relative to another - cooing and giggling at Aunt Alma, Grandma and Grandpa, or her great Pa-Pa and Ma-Ma and all of her other relatives that we miss so much. Is Jesus playing with her and giving her all those hugs and kisses for me - the ones I keep sending up there? Our beautiful daughter is surrounded by things I'll see one day - the gorgeous colors, the beautiful light of God, the singing of angels and the peace of love.
Oh, how I miss her. My heart bursts with the love I can't give her now. But one day - one day I will. I'll be up there in heaven with her, where I'll get to meet her face to face, hold her in my arms once more. But this time I'll be able to see her beautiful eyes, hear her call my name, and feel her arms wrap around me in a heavenly hug.
There are two things I long for - to see Jesus and give Him a lifetime of hugs and to see my two beautiful children who have been waiting for me.
In the meantime, I'll live my life with purpose - to fill the hearts and minds of those I love with God's Word and the love of Jesus.
But I do not want you to be ignorant, brethren, concerning those who have fallen asleep, lest you sorrow as others who have no hope. For if we believe Jesus died and rose again, even so God will bring with Him those who sleep in Jesus. - 1 Thesa