Mourning is a funny thing. I don't mean that literally, but figuratively. I mourned Emma for quite some time after she died. She's always with me in my heart and I often think about what she would be doing now if she were still alive - learning her letters or numbers, playing with our dogs, running around the house, loving her brother and sister. But, I know that she's in heaven, playing with other children, sitting at the feet of Jesus and waiting for the day that we'll be together forever.
What gets me is that when another child dies, I literally mourn again - for the mother who just lost her child, for me, for Emma. It's mourning, but different. It's a compassion and an empathy that I feel for the grieving mother. It's knowing exactly where she is at that moment - the sorrow that sweeps over her, the longing to hold her child again. My heart aches, literally aches like it did when Emma first died. I feel it all over again, but with a newness - a tenderness to take that other mama in my arms and just cry with her - as two moms united by a single, solitary event in our lives that forever create a bond that cannot be expressed in any other way. Words cannot express the sorrow I feel the way tears and hugs can.
So, for all of you moms out there that have lost a child, whether through miscarriage, stillbirth, cancer, or some other tragedy - please know that you are loved. I'm sending you cyber hugs from one mama to another.
What gets me is that when another child dies, I literally mourn again - for the mother who just lost her child, for me, for Emma. It's mourning, but different. It's a compassion and an empathy that I feel for the grieving mother. It's knowing exactly where she is at that moment - the sorrow that sweeps over her, the longing to hold her child again. My heart aches, literally aches like it did when Emma first died. I feel it all over again, but with a newness - a tenderness to take that other mama in my arms and just cry with her - as two moms united by a single, solitary event in our lives that forever create a bond that cannot be expressed in any other way. Words cannot express the sorrow I feel the way tears and hugs can.
So, for all of you moms out there that have lost a child, whether through miscarriage, stillbirth, cancer, or some other tragedy - please know that you are loved. I'm sending you cyber hugs from one mama to another.